Friday, February 17, 2006, 11:27 PM
Conflicts arised. Quarrels here and there, quarrels everywhere. These past two days, I could not afford a hardcore laughter due to that. I also could not afford myself to be self-entertaining at the expense of others due to that. I'm still trying myself to be myself. But life is getting tougher each year. I don't know why. Relationships deteoriated. Friendships burst just like a balloon, without any notification. And people start to fuck with each other. Who knows? This might be a test from The Powers That Be, but no longer can I take the pressure. I always pray about it, but sometimes, to no avail. I want to find freedom and peace in church. It's one of the finest places on planet Earth. I want to run like the wind. Running non-stop towards the ends of the earth. Looks like the Emotional Hardcore Kid thingy is starting to become a reality. OK let's face the facts. I'm tired. I can't deal with the bullshit of certain things anymore. I've started to develop hatred and animosity towards some of my ex-classmates. I can just fantasize about the massacre spree, just an example of my wild imagination. I thank God for that. Yeah guess I'm kind of pissed about my personal matters. I just hope things will just end with a cliffhanger, whatever the consequences are, positive or negative. Conclusion? Suck on my balls to handle the truth.