Tuesday, April 07, 2009, 12:49 AM
I read through the archives.
I noticed I've changed. I'm not as caring as I was back then. I'm just simply trying too hard this time round. Too hard that I could not bend and break it. Too hard that it doesn't seem to be working. Too hard that I tend to be insensitive towards certain things.
And for these causes, it broke down to pieces. Perhaps it should be as easy as playing abc but somehow, it doesn't seem to be.
But still, I just want to try. I never seem to plan before doing anything. I just whack, whack with faith to be more precise. But now, I have to ask myself whether have I been whacking with faith or I'm just whacking it for the sake of whacking?
Turns out that I need to do some soul searching first, even before I need to start on anything.
I need to learn the art of being wise, making the right choices and being sure of myself before doing anything. Vincent was saying that we can all be sure to whack with faith, but NOT with blind faith. I'm sure by that, we need to be certain about the stuff that we are doing.
Nobody goes on the show "Who Wants To Be A Millionaire?" without a knowledge of knowing what will the questions asked be. Surely they all have done some homework on general knowledge prior to going onto the show.
That same concept applies to me but it needs to be done within one's inner self. Action speaks louder than words. Just can't say it, have to do it.
Back to soul-searching, suckers. I miss the days when the two words can make people remember it for their lives. Maybe it's not "their", just singular. But now, I have to wait for signals. I want to do it, from my heart.